Y2K – Looking back and Forward

Almost twenty years ago at midnight clocks were waiting to strike twelve at the start of a new millennium. I remember my friend Iain’s sister asking me ‘how will we know if the world has ended’ – she like many others were caught up in the ‘millennium bug’ hype. With Iain himself saying the first words I heard of the year 2000 – ‘I can’t get my cork out’ (he meant champagne for those of you with dirty minds). The world was changing with every bang of fireworks I saw rippling across the city, and almost felt an innocence was being lost (not sure if was my own, the world or both).

Twenty years on and the world continues to change, with one step forward and two backwards as we no longer accept old ways and embraced new ones (not always for the better). I am still a free spirit that does not like being caged, and finally found the key to that freedom as rid myself of the beast in my head that let negativity to self hate make their own nests. We have never been so connected, but yet I feel more apart than ever. The 2010’s were a frustrating decade as well, but surviving the battles just make me more determined than ever to bite back with karma at my side.

As to the next twenty years, what will they bring? We don’t have the jet packs to flying cars we thought we would have, but the robots look less human yet Siri and Alexa are in many ways the things of science fiction books. We need to continue to focus on the good in life, not comparing our lives with others, and be empathetically compassionate. Fear has been allowed to suffocate us for too long, it’s time to fight back with light to conquer those that want darkness and slaves of us.

Meantime, whatever it brings we are stronger together than apart, and hope the start to the third decade of the 21st century brings us all happiness, good health (mental and physical) and all we could wish for.

© Fi S. J. Brown

Life is an anagram of file

Everyone of us is born like an empty file, which over our lifetime is filled with different words, pictures and sounds that are unique to us.
There are special moments we save to our file to remember them again years later, but also those we forgot to press save on now gone. Equally, there are those we wish we could delete as bring us pain when we see them, as well as those in haste we erased with anger or in tears.
Life is full of repeats. Copied and pasted throughout the file, perhaps they are lessons we are meant to learn from. Cutting toxic people is a must for our sanities, as act like a virus on our file, but it is not always easy as a click of a mouse to remove them permanently.
Sometimes it feels like it be good if we could star a new file, but this is impossible. Stop to think of all that be lost if succeeded in aborting. Remember even if the file gets corrupted and refuses to not open, it is not necessarily the end. There is support out there that can help us.
Arial 11 in black maybe default, standard or “normal”, but there is no such thing as a standard human being. So explore the fonts, sizes and colours till find one that is us. Sometimes adding italics, bolding or underlining works, but it’s not for everyone. Find and create our normal.
As a new year approaches, a time of resolutions and possible change. Think of it like a new page on the file, how we fill it is up to us,
© Fi S. J. Brown

Festive Ponders 2015

It is almost the shortest day of the year, which means the final countdown of the festive season will truly begin. A time for excess, but let’s make it of love, compassion and empathy, not envy, jealousy, or the largest turkey to diamond ring we can afford. Remember, it is not the size of the gift or price tag, but the thought another human being thinking of us that does. They took time out of their day to do so, even if we don’t like it.
 
It is also the time when we reflect on the year now almost over, resolving to make the next better than this. Instead of resolving to change habits that we will break as soon as the 1am bells ring, why do we not consider being ourselves 24/7. Be true to who we are and what matters to us, nobody has the right to tell us it is not normal or wrong as it is what is what and how life’s colours paint our story and no two are ever truly a like.
 
Also, be gentle with ourselves when things don’t go as planned, that way when success comes it can be like enjoying the view from a mountain seeing all we overcame to get there. Do not feel guilty at that piece of chocolate or extra mince pie, as we all deserve a treat for surviving those dark and hard times. However, using alcohol to drunks to cover those times do not work, like a band aid on a gaping, the pain will always seep through.
 
Nobody is truly ever alone, we all have someone somewhere that we matter to even in thought and spirit. It may not be a happy season for all but send hope. To those we call family or close friend, keep them close in heart not just at Christmas but every day by letting our thoughts and actions show how much they mean to us. To those we may only speak to via Facebook or Christmas card, are symbols of our life’s journey from past to present, giving it shape.
 
To those that follow my blog I appreciate you doing so as you follow my journey and do not judge it, accepting my quirks and idiosyncratic ponders, as paint the world as it is through my experiences and points of view. To those these are the first words of mine you have read, thank you for taking time to read. Now take all these words as my gift to you all, wishing good health (mental and physical), love, light and peace today and everyday.
 
© Fi S. J. Brown